PHENOMENOLOGY

 JOYCE / TOMO :

...a writer.
...a procastinator.
...a dreamer.
...a reluctant leader.
...a friend who will always be there.
...a lady trapped in a child's body.
...a daughter who wants her parents proud.
...a sinner saved by grace.
...a lost soul.


She wants to...
...have a baby brother.
...adopt a child when she's 25.
...fix her life.
...be accepted.
...find herself.
...work for the United Nations.
...join the army.
...live and die with dignity.



She's happy because...
=>she has friends who love her.
=>she had parents who unconditionally supports her.
=>she's slowly understanding why out of the millions of sperms she was the one chosen to live.
=>she's growing up.
=>she has the freedom to express herself.
=>she found people who unconditionally accepted her.
=>she's learning to live one day at a time.
=>she could finally find happiness in simple things.
=>she's earning (a little).
=>she deserves to be.



But she's sad because...
= she messed up her life.
= somebody broke her heart.
= people raise their eyebrows when she cries.
= she got lost and can't find her way back.
= she feels alone.
= she misses her friends.
= she wants to turn back the time but can't.



But she still hopes to...
++ find the way back.
++ get over all this.
++ remain strong.
++ see the finish line.
++ fight till the end.
++ live up to the expectations of her family.
++ fix her broken battered heart.
++ find what she lost.
++ finally find real happiness.