BAILING OUT

Temporary Insanity.
This is what I often tell myself every time I feel this way. This is nothing but temporary insanity; a slight malfunction in my brain system.
But is it?

History is repeating itself.
Here I am once again in my "giving up" moods. I know this will pass away like what it did before but sometimes, making it real seemed a better idea than holding on.

In times like this, I just want to give up and leave this world. I've been having those sleepless nights again, contemplating on things that I should do and should have done. Weighing the pros and the cons of what I am planning to do even though I know that there is no possible pros in this. I have been tempted many times to stop everything and turn my back to everything I ever cared for and just leave.

Its selfish and pathetic.
And I hate pathetic people. Which simply proves that I hate myself.

I only have several reasons for leaving and a hundred reasons to stay but leaving seemed easier than staying. Cowardice may not be the best attitude in the world but it makes life easier [for cowards].

I wish I could just do it and stop thinking about my responsibilities, my family and everything else. I may just do it one of these days but I guess I have to finish everything before I do something dreadful so at least people won't feel that bad.

I have everything planned, or at least that is what I think. Of course, nothing in this world ever go as planned...there will always be glitches. No matter...I will think about this thoroughly, probably give myself one more week then I'm bailing out.